Friendship retrospective...

Friday, July 09, 2004

Well, I said previously that I just felt tired. I didn't expect to go to sleep too early! Well, fortunately, I did, and I just woke up nih. Woke up at 5.40 a.m. Earliest I've ever woke up this week!

Actually, this is what I wanted to write yesterday. I wanted to say how lonely I'm feeling in Uniten... At first, I didn't admit it coz well, takkan la bole lonely. But truth of the fact is, mmg pun lonely. Especially when my gf Ha is not here. Normally, even if I'm alone, we would spend time together, thus cutting off my alone time. But without her, I'd do what I used to do before meeting Ha: I'd just go to class in the morning, then go back to my apartment in the afternoon, play basketball, then go for dinner at night, then go back to apartment and do some work or be online and so on, then go to sleep. Repeat that for another 4 more weekdays and that's how boring my life is.

I think what makes my life dull here at Uniten is my lack of friends. I dunno... is it hard to make new friends? I certainly feel that way... Ever since my life at SAS and KMYS, I've made friends with people who are the same age as me. But when I entered Uniten, friends my age have already started to finish their courses and were about to graduate in a year's time. Thus, I'm left with juniors to be friends with, coz it's with them that I enter Uniten. It's not that I don't have any junior friends at all, but it's just that I don't feel that comfortable being friends with them as I am comfortable being friends with people my age. Call me snobbish, call me unfriendly, I don't care: it's how I've been brought up at SAS and KMYS...

But I think I'll change my standpoint from now on. I'll try to make as many friends as possible... but therein lies the next problem: I'm shy! Hahaha... But I guess I'll have to find a way to work over that problem then...

On another note, I've just read my friend Juju's blog, and I also feel sorry for her. She's had to stay back in UK to finish her course for another year, while most of her friends are going back to Malaysia to start work. Kesian... Part of me feels sad for my UK friends coz they're gonna leave their beloved friends and UK that they've known and love for the past 3 years, but another part of me feels happy coz finally they're gonna come back here for good! Now, I can finally meet them as often as possible! :)

Posted by Nikman Shah at 6:13 am
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