I talk to myself...

Tuesday, October 05, 2004

Hi! I just woke up. And instead of doing something like studying or anything, I go and write a blog. Hehehe... I think I should be called a blog addict... But that is a topic for another post.

Hmm... what am I gonna write about today... Do you guys talk to yourselves?

"What?!! Talk to our own selves? Are you crazy?" is what I think you guys would be saying now. But no, I reassure you, I'm not crazy (at least not yet! ;)). Talking to myself is just a habit I've been practising ever since I was a small child.

In actual fact, I think it should not be categorised as talking to myself, but only thinking out loud. I tend to voice out what my conscience is saying. That thinking thing you do in your head when you're thinking about something... Instead of quietly doing it in your head, I voice it out. That's why it sort of like sounds like I'm talking alone.

But I can really testify that yes, when I was a small child, I talked to myself. I like to visualise that there's a person sitting or standing in front of me and I'm having a dialogue with him. First I would voice out what I wanna say, than I would take his place and say what he wants to say (which is actually what I also want to say), and so on. Weird...

Do you think it's crazy to be like this? Should I stop? I don't think I can stop - it's become a part and parcel of my life. However, I really avoid doing it in the presence of others, because I don't want to scare them away.

I think I'm like this because I'm lonely. I want to say something, but since my frens are not around, I'll have to make up a fren out of thin air and talk with him. Huhuhu... crazy...

"So Nik, let's go and solat Subuh..." I say to myself. And then I reply, "Jom... but let me finish this first!" ;)

Have a good day guys! I don't think I will... Why? The usual suspects of course - my work... :(


Posted by Nikman Shah at 6:18 am
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